Ode Recess Part II
Ok, I haven’t written anything down here in a while and some people have mentioned that fact to me. It’s just that I don’t want to talk about philosophical stuff nor do I want to talk about how my days pass. So, I tried writing a few poems and I only came up with one. I wrote another one on “Comfort” but it didn’t come out right because the rhyming scheme is off and the poem almost has a song-like feel about it. So I’m going to work on that a bit more before I publish it.
A lot has happened since my last entry. It’s like… everything I said before is crap and that I’m really not the same sort of person I used to think I was. However, it’s all good because I’m showing a lot more emotions than before and I’m showing more flaws. I always said that I would never do anything on impulse and that I always end up doing what I thought I would do in a certain situation. Well, turns out, there are always scenarios which you have not thought of where the only thing you can do is act impulsively.
Turns out that’s not a bad thing.
So, yeah, I’m a lot more fun-loving these days. There’s not much fun to come by but I’m still always on the lookout to have fun.
Ok, I mentioned “Newbie’s” friend a while back and I was kind of mean in the way I brushed off naming her simply because I didn’t think I would be mentioning her often. Didn’t think she would be a major person in my life in the days to come. So, she definitely deserves her own nickname. It’s kind of hard to come up with one because I don’t know which facet of her persona I should use to portray her image. For now, I think I’ll call her “Gassy” even though that’s not as flattering a term as the one she really deserves. I was considering call her “Davidoff” but that sounds too manly. I’ll get her opinion on “Gassy” and then see what to do afterwards.
Well, not surprising but she doesn’t like “Gassy”. So, we’ve decided that for now, she’ll be “Cool Water”. Makes her sound like a native Indian, but it’ll do.
I keep coming back to the Our Lady Peace song “Not Enough”. I still listen to it daily and nowadays, whenever I think of that something is “Not Enough”, the song comes to mind. Right now, the thought that went through my mind was education. It’s never enough what you’ve done. I thought high school was an achievement. Not Enough. I thought a university degree would mean something. Still Not Enough. A master’s degree. Now you’re getting somewhere.
Again, it’s the challenge. You’re being challenged to be the best you can be. Honestly, that’s a pathetic way to live because I would much rather love to live a casual life such as a coffee shop owner in a nice town. Yet, I’m sure that I wouldn’t have spent two or three years there before I’ll start turning my eyes towards expanding into cities.
What I would really love it to go into outer space. Just spend years and years of my life exploring other planets. Of course, that’s still something beyond human capability.
But back to me as a person. I’m in a good mood right now. It’s not like those nirvana states that I’ve often mentioned but it’s just one where I’m just happy. There’s a lot of work to do but whoopee! There’s always work to be done and I know I’m on top of it all. There are obligations to fulfil but I’m actually looking forward to making those.
It all comes down to doing what you want. When you do what you want, you enjoy it. I’m enjoying being at residence these days because there’s almost always someone here who I can hang out with. There’s always someone in my classes who I can hang out with. There’s always work to be done but it’s not a burden doing it anymore because I can do them with friends. In the lack of family presence, friends have taken it upon themselves to come together and try and fill the huge void as much as they can.
It’s a lot easier to trust my friends this year. Last year, I can’t say I completely trusted all of them. This year, the number has tripled. I feel like I can talk to them about my problems more openly. Thank goodness that I don’t have problems.
Last year, we were all having a blast. Couldn’t get enough of hanging out every night. I guess that was because we lived a decent distance from each other. However, we moved closer and now poof! It’s like a glass ball. It’s nice to hold something so beautiful but if you try to hold it too tight, it shatters.
Friends try to get too close and they end up splitting up even more. What a pity. Yet, we still meet almost everyday because we’re that sort of people. We’re friends who are brothers when family is absent. We’re the Kings of Floor 12 soon to be Princes of the Universe!
A lot has happened since my last entry. It’s like… everything I said before is crap and that I’m really not the same sort of person I used to think I was. However, it’s all good because I’m showing a lot more emotions than before and I’m showing more flaws. I always said that I would never do anything on impulse and that I always end up doing what I thought I would do in a certain situation. Well, turns out, there are always scenarios which you have not thought of where the only thing you can do is act impulsively.
Turns out that’s not a bad thing.
So, yeah, I’m a lot more fun-loving these days. There’s not much fun to come by but I’m still always on the lookout to have fun.
Ok, I mentioned “Newbie’s” friend a while back and I was kind of mean in the way I brushed off naming her simply because I didn’t think I would be mentioning her often. Didn’t think she would be a major person in my life in the days to come. So, she definitely deserves her own nickname. It’s kind of hard to come up with one because I don’t know which facet of her persona I should use to portray her image. For now, I think I’ll call her “Gassy” even though that’s not as flattering a term as the one she really deserves. I was considering call her “Davidoff” but that sounds too manly. I’ll get her opinion on “Gassy” and then see what to do afterwards.
Well, not surprising but she doesn’t like “Gassy”. So, we’ve decided that for now, she’ll be “Cool Water”. Makes her sound like a native Indian, but it’ll do.
I keep coming back to the Our Lady Peace song “Not Enough”. I still listen to it daily and nowadays, whenever I think of that something is “Not Enough”, the song comes to mind. Right now, the thought that went through my mind was education. It’s never enough what you’ve done. I thought high school was an achievement. Not Enough. I thought a university degree would mean something. Still Not Enough. A master’s degree. Now you’re getting somewhere.
Again, it’s the challenge. You’re being challenged to be the best you can be. Honestly, that’s a pathetic way to live because I would much rather love to live a casual life such as a coffee shop owner in a nice town. Yet, I’m sure that I wouldn’t have spent two or three years there before I’ll start turning my eyes towards expanding into cities.
What I would really love it to go into outer space. Just spend years and years of my life exploring other planets. Of course, that’s still something beyond human capability.
But back to me as a person. I’m in a good mood right now. It’s not like those nirvana states that I’ve often mentioned but it’s just one where I’m just happy. There’s a lot of work to do but whoopee! There’s always work to be done and I know I’m on top of it all. There are obligations to fulfil but I’m actually looking forward to making those.
It all comes down to doing what you want. When you do what you want, you enjoy it. I’m enjoying being at residence these days because there’s almost always someone here who I can hang out with. There’s always someone in my classes who I can hang out with. There’s always work to be done but it’s not a burden doing it anymore because I can do them with friends. In the lack of family presence, friends have taken it upon themselves to come together and try and fill the huge void as much as they can.
It’s a lot easier to trust my friends this year. Last year, I can’t say I completely trusted all of them. This year, the number has tripled. I feel like I can talk to them about my problems more openly. Thank goodness that I don’t have problems.
Last year, we were all having a blast. Couldn’t get enough of hanging out every night. I guess that was because we lived a decent distance from each other. However, we moved closer and now poof! It’s like a glass ball. It’s nice to hold something so beautiful but if you try to hold it too tight, it shatters.
Friends try to get too close and they end up splitting up even more. What a pity. Yet, we still meet almost everyday because we’re that sort of people. We’re friends who are brothers when family is absent. We’re the Kings of Floor 12 soon to be Princes of the Universe!
