This Is A Story About A Girl

Alright, let’s talk about “Sugar”. I haven’t described her at all to anyone. Now I’m sure she’s going to be disappointed by this since she’s already read all this and probably wanted to hear me say other things about her, but I’ve really said everything I think about her though I might have a few additions at the end and a few editions here and there. So here goes:

Alright, what do I have to say about this filly? She’s feisty, I’ll give her that! She’s got a lot of spunk in her. You just have to love her sense of sarcasm! Too bad she and I haven’t unleashed our insults on each other yet. Yet, we’re such good friends that we don’t make fun of each other.

I’ve known her off and on for a long time now. I don’t remember completely what she was like before but I remember I made a lot of fun of her. Now, I sing a different note of the same song. I still make fun of her but she’s an awesome person! AWESOME (inside joke)! In stature, she hasn’t grown much since I last knew her but her heart just got a lot bigger (and her hair a lot longer). Too sappy? There’s still not much that I can say about her but she strikes me as a gal who can be trusted. She can be my lifeguard partner anytime!

“Sugar’s” got this aura about her that just makes people want to trust her and come to her with their problems. I’m not the only one who has noticed this. She’s got this way of listening and making the conversation about you. It just makes you feel important and remind you that there are people in the world who love you for who you are.

I often see her cheery side. The care-free one who has an optimistic outlook on life (even though she would like us to believe otherwise). I know that she’s got her mood swings but whenever the time comes, I shall be one of the many lining up to cheer her up.

My biggest question would be… WHY is she still single????

There’s something about this girl that makes a friendship with her a new adventure everyday.

Every time I talk to her, our conversations are smooth and they’re just something that I’ve come to look forward to. She’s one of the few people who I actually enjoy talking to.

Since we started talking, she and I have come a long way and I have to say that she’s definitely an extraordinary person who always brings something new to the lives of others.

There are so many things about her that I could spend hours talking about. But all of her friends already know the good things about her for she is always there for them.
There’s an appeal about her that makes people think that with her, they are on top of the world and without her, they’re just waiting for her to light up their world.

I think I’ve finally come to see many different sides of “Sugar” and each side just seems so interesting that I could spend a lifetime getting to know her completely.

Her personality has got its own cute quirks. The way she seems to pout and moan about the most trivial of problems and gets all upset if we don’t manage to talk regularly is really amusing and just makes me want to put my arm around her and tell her “Grow up!” She’ll probably end up just sticking her tongue out at me because she’s got childish impulses which are really nice to watch.

So yeah, that’s “Sugar” in my eyes. How does she sound?

Metamorphosis

I’ve definitely changed over the past few weeks and it hasn’t been for the good. Most of my principles have gone out the window because I just realised that they were either holding me back from having fun or were just useless to have around.

So, I’m more carefree than I was before but is that a good thing? Isn’t being careful an advantage so that you don’t make mistakes? Whatever, a life of drudgery and planned executions is not what I want anyway.

It’s amusing to see over the past few days how people have been making all these assumptions about who I am and making claims that they know what I’d do and what I won’t. They don’t know what I can do and what I can’t. I don’t know myself how far I’m willing to go.

I’m talking to “Newbie” over MSN and he’s convinced that it’s not me because I just won’t talk like the way I talked that day.

I’m talking to a cousin. “Tell me, you have known me since when?” I had to prove to him that it was really me.

Well, I guess it’s really a matter of not hiding who I really am anymore. When you lower the fake world that you’ve put up because of rules and principles, you emerge as a completely different person and I guess people will just have to learn to cope with that.

It’s not like it’s a bad thing… I can enjoy myself more now without worrying whether I’d be breaking my own rules or something. Along with the rules going out the window, a crack has formed for something else to come back and reunite with me. Emotions. I guess now that I’m not thinking about following my rules to a T, I can begin to enjoy being with friends, enjoy talking to people, be happy, sad, scared, excited and perhaps even love.

So yeah… I’m a different person in reality. Forget everything you thought you knew about me and then come talk to me. Perhaps you won’t like the new me and you’ll bugger off because I don’t need people like you around anyway. There are plenty of new people I can meet who will like who I really am.

Cynicism is a powerful thing. Use it wisely. Take everything with a pinch of salt and eventually, everything that comes your way will taste sweet.

Ode Recess Part II

Ok, I haven’t written anything down here in a while and some people have mentioned that fact to me. It’s just that I don’t want to talk about philosophical stuff nor do I want to talk about how my days pass. So, I tried writing a few poems and I only came up with one. I wrote another one on “Comfort” but it didn’t come out right because the rhyming scheme is off and the poem almost has a song-like feel about it. So I’m going to work on that a bit more before I publish it.

A lot has happened since my last entry. It’s like… everything I said before is crap and that I’m really not the same sort of person I used to think I was. However, it’s all good because I’m showing a lot more emotions than before and I’m showing more flaws. I always said that I would never do anything on impulse and that I always end up doing what I thought I would do in a certain situation. Well, turns out, there are always scenarios which you have not thought of where the only thing you can do is act impulsively.

Turns out that’s not a bad thing.

So, yeah, I’m a lot more fun-loving these days. There’s not much fun to come by but I’m still always on the lookout to have fun.

Ok, I mentioned “Newbie’s” friend a while back and I was kind of mean in the way I brushed off naming her simply because I didn’t think I would be mentioning her often. Didn’t think she would be a major person in my life in the days to come. So, she definitely deserves her own nickname. It’s kind of hard to come up with one because I don’t know which facet of her persona I should use to portray her image. For now, I think I’ll call her “Gassy” even though that’s not as flattering a term as the one she really deserves. I was considering call her “Davidoff” but that sounds too manly. I’ll get her opinion on “Gassy” and then see what to do afterwards.

Well, not surprising but she doesn’t like “Gassy”. So, we’ve decided that for now, she’ll be “Cool Water”. Makes her sound like a native Indian, but it’ll do.

I keep coming back to the Our Lady Peace song “Not Enough”. I still listen to it daily and nowadays, whenever I think of that something is “Not Enough”, the song comes to mind. Right now, the thought that went through my mind was education. It’s never enough what you’ve done. I thought high school was an achievement. Not Enough. I thought a university degree would mean something. Still Not Enough. A master’s degree. Now you’re getting somewhere.

Again, it’s the challenge. You’re being challenged to be the best you can be. Honestly, that’s a pathetic way to live because I would much rather love to live a casual life such as a coffee shop owner in a nice town. Yet, I’m sure that I wouldn’t have spent two or three years there before I’ll start turning my eyes towards expanding into cities.

What I would really love it to go into outer space. Just spend years and years of my life exploring other planets. Of course, that’s still something beyond human capability.

But back to me as a person. I’m in a good mood right now. It’s not like those nirvana states that I’ve often mentioned but it’s just one where I’m just happy. There’s a lot of work to do but whoopee! There’s always work to be done and I know I’m on top of it all. There are obligations to fulfil but I’m actually looking forward to making those.

It all comes down to doing what you want. When you do what you want, you enjoy it. I’m enjoying being at residence these days because there’s almost always someone here who I can hang out with. There’s always someone in my classes who I can hang out with. There’s always work to be done but it’s not a burden doing it anymore because I can do them with friends. In the lack of family presence, friends have taken it upon themselves to come together and try and fill the huge void as much as they can.

It’s a lot easier to trust my friends this year. Last year, I can’t say I completely trusted all of them. This year, the number has tripled. I feel like I can talk to them about my problems more openly. Thank goodness that I don’t have problems.

Last year, we were all having a blast. Couldn’t get enough of hanging out every night. I guess that was because we lived a decent distance from each other. However, we moved closer and now poof! It’s like a glass ball. It’s nice to hold something so beautiful but if you try to hold it too tight, it shatters.

Friends try to get too close and they end up splitting up even more. What a pity. Yet, we still meet almost everyday because we’re that sort of people. We’re friends who are brothers when family is absent. We’re the Kings of Floor 12 soon to be Princes of the Universe!